I have this habit that I didn’t realize I had. Craig pointed it out a while back. Then I started noticing it.
It is I guess a sort of self-soothing, thinking, unaware thing I do when I’m lost in thought, anxious, bored, reminiscing or what not.
Usually it involves just my left hand, but I have been known to do it with both hands.
What is it?
I rub my thumb between my second and third fingers in a back and forth motion, generally across my nail, in an absent mind sort of way.
Once this was pointed out to me, I tried to pay attention to when I did it or the occasions I did it. It seems to be something I do when I am deep in thought and definitely a tactile means of self-soothing.
I wondered for a bit why I did this. I wondered was this something I learned by observation. All the while, rubbing my fingers.
I had this nagging feeling that I had seen the behavior somewhere. A sort of comfort behavior.
Then I remembered this picture.Here is the same finger pose. Pensive thinking, fingers ready.
I love this picture.
This person I loved with all my heart.
When I rub my fingers now, I also remember my Grandmother.
I’m connected to her again. I remember her love.
Rub. Rub. Rub.
It’s self-soothing when you miss someone.
I am now on a mission to discover how many family members inherited this trait or learned this behavior.
So far I’ve found two more. 🙂