Some people write their blogs and have the confidence to push the blue publish button without fear.
Too often, I fall into the second group. That is probably why I write in my journal more than I write here on my blog.
Fear of rejection. Fear of ridicule. Fear of my own failings.
Well, I’ve been thinking about fear.
It isn’t only in writing that fear rears it’s ugly head in my life. I really don’t like writing that. I like to think that I am a strong person. Writing that sentence makes me feel weak.
I’ve thought about all the different areas that fear has influenced/influences me over the course of my life.
I’ve been a people pleaser, I’ve feared confrontation, I’ve feared ridicule for what I believe in and who I am. I’ve feared getting hurt. Fear of the unknown, I like a plan.
Some of those fears come back to haunt me now and then. Sigh.
That is when I try to remind/question myself, ‘what is at the root of my particular fear’?
When I get through the layers, and face it, for me it is a lack of trust.
I’m not trusting Him.
We’ve been walking through the book of Exodus on Sunday mornings at Sandhills Community Church. (Podcasts are available on their webpage).
I am being reminded that we/I am like the Israelites. They too had trouble with fear. They too had trouble with trust.
Over and over God took the Israelites, or us to dilemmas that they, or us don’t know the answers for to see if we will call out to Him to provide. For me it has been in areas of family relationships, health, finances and jobs. Some of those He repeated, I obviously needed to learn something. As He said to the Israelites, He is saying to me: “Do you trust Me?”
As the Israelites were afraid of the unknown then, so am I at times.
Are you facing any fears/Egyptians today? If so, I’d like to encourage you to try what has helped me.
Recognize the fear, give it to Jesus and then you will find you are no longer afraid. Is it always easy? No. Is it worth it. Yes! Too often it is after the dilemma that we look back and see the blessing. That is one thing I have noticed in reading my journal. You can go back and see the blessings. So I would encourage you to trust, be still, so you don’t miss it. Blessings to you gentle reader! No fear for that “blue publish button!” 🙂
“Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:13-14
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46: 10
“The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Psalm 46:11